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Anonymum has started a series of interviews of her readers. Java Queen was first and I was second. And let me tell you, she holds nothing back in the questions that she asks. There was one that I was expecting but the others were a surprise. And I answered them all despite a one-time offer to change them if I wasn’t happy with answering them.

After the first two interviews there seems to be a bit of a theme happening - our darling Evyl is feeling rejected.

When Javaqueen answered this question:
If you could pick any man in the world to have one night of unadulterated passion with {and no recriminations} who would it be, and why?

it seems Evyl was disappointed that it wasn’t him.

And when I answered these questions:

Have you ever been tempted to have an affair since being married {or have you already??}

and Evyl wasn’t at the top of the list he seemed worried that it was becoming a disturbing trend.

So instead of mentioning him in my answers, I thought that I would go one better and dedicate a whole post to him. If you’re feint of heart then his place is not where you want to be seen visiting. But if you have a great sense of humour with a bit of a twist then you will love it at his place. If you haven’t already been, then call in and say “Hi” and tell him I sent you. And he may even let you shout him a beer. And keep your eye on Anonymum’s place - there are plenty more interviews to come and it promises to be great fun. Finally, I would like to dedicate a song to Evyl. Mwah, love ya honey:

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Where has the time gone??? It seems like only a few weeks ago that it was the beginning of the semester and so much lay ahead of me.

Now I am 6 assignments, 15 online quizes and lots of reading down the track and exams start tomorrow.

Its been at least 15 years since I have done exams, if not more. I think that I did some TAFE exams but I can’t remember for sure, it was that long ago. It all feels very daunting for me. The kids and DH are feeling a bit neglected because every spare minute I have been dashing off to the study to do some more work. If I am out, one of my text books is a constant companion in case I have a few minutes to read.

My first exam is tomorrow, the next one is the following Wednesday and the last one is June 24. So, I may not be around much. I will try and read all your blogs but probably won’t have much time to comment. Don’t think I am ignoring you all, I am just distracted and a wee bit stressed about it all.

Take care of yourselves and I will see you on the other side of the exams. I can’t wait because that means I will have some time off for mid-year break, the kids will be on school holidays and I will be able to sleep in. What more could I want?????

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Have you ever had one of those days where you question everything??? Not a fleeting thought of how, why, when, but rather really question, and mainly yourself and everything you do and say.Where things happen and you really start to wonder whether you have been living in some parallel reality and then suddenly you are back in reality with everyone else. Where you have been so caught up in going through the motions of every day that you forget to look at the big picture????Today is one of those days and the questions aren’t good. And nor are the answers. One of those days where the big picture is frightening. One of those days where I am wondering whether being prepared to move the earth for those that I love is really a good thing. Because the ones that I love more than anything keep slapping me in the face. Well, not literally, but that’s how it feels today. How many times do I offer to move the earth before I learn that maybe they don’t want me to, or that they need to do it for themselves. And if they can’t move it themselves then there is more that they need to do before they are ready to try.Do I keep fighting the fight or do I sit back and let it all happen around me and just make sure that I provide for their basic needs and nothing more, because to do more hurts so much. Its not the doing more that really hurts, but the fact that it all seems so pointless. How many brick walls do I bash my head against, how many dead ends do I have to reach, only to retrace my steps and try the other fork in the road. Only to find that is another dead end. I used to be filled with hope and they carried with them so much promise. So much potential. I guess its still there, but its fading. It needs to burn from within and its not and I don’t know how to change that. Or whether I can. Or should.What I do know is there is no easy answer.  I just don’t know if I have the strength to keep looking for it. I used to think that I did, but now I am not so sure.  The light at the end of the tunnel has gone out and I am trying to find my way in the dark. And its not easy. I don’t think that I can be everything that they need anymore. Something else for me to ponder for today I guess. Like I need more to think about.

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